It's been a while..

Hey! I'm back!! After a long time, i finally got a chance to update my blog..^^
Well, i'm very very busy the few weeks ago because of the exam and other stuff, you know..
Now the exams are over, but i had to say that i am still not relaxed yet and the reason is that i did very bad in this time's exam..i can say that it was worse than the last semester..oh well, i'm afraid the worst nightmare is going to happen soon.. Not long, i'll have to say goodbye to my laptop, my phone, and Taiwan!!! AAAARRRGGGHHH!!!! Stupid exam!! What's the big deal huh?! It's only a f***ing piece of s***!!
okay....calm down, kelly...
anyway, i don't know why but right after exam, i had a strong christmas spirit in me.. today, the AJK (audrey, joyce and kelly) sang christmas songs in class.. i just cant wait for christmas!!! Falalalala,lalalala!!! =)

Kelly's fave christmas song:-
1) Noel
2) i saw mummy kissing santa claus
3) deck the halls
4)jingle bell rock
5)twelve days of christmas
6)rudolph the red nosed reindeer
7) frosty the snowman

Thanks for the memories..

Thank you so much for the memories you've given me. I am very happy and grateful to have known you, although, only as friends. I'll always remember what we've done together and the happy moments when we're together. Maybe our fate is not to be lovers like a fairy tale but i'll be very very happy that we can still talk to each other like ordinary friends. I appreciate all that we've gone through. Thanks for the memories, thanks for everything. I'm happy for you and i want you to stay like that if you are really happy this way..

Kingone Wang

Ladies and gentlemen, may i present you.....
Kingone Wang!!
He's so damn hot and cute, foe Christ's sake!! I am definitely so into him!! Sorry to say that, my girlfriends (Joyce and Drey), Robert Pattinson HAS to be the second now... =)

See what i mean? He's adorable!!

Cool too!

He was in the modeling career before started acting.

He can be hot and cute at the same time!

His dimple drives me crazy!!

Not his girlfriend...

He likes to eat too!!(like cycle..)

He's good in taking pics of himself..

He's cool in his sunglasses

His nose is so perfect!! *ahhhhhh....*

Being a child again...

Today i actually planned to go jogging with Deepika and Joyce, but we ended up hanging around the playground for the whole afternoon. Hah! So much for slimming down!

Actually being a child is very good. They really can sing Hakuna Matata every single day..They'll have no worries about money and future..

Anyway, we played the swing, see-saw and last but not least, the monkey bars. To say the truth, this is the first time in my whole life that i am doing childish things without caring what other people would think of me. It's like i'm not "bloody sixteen years old" anymore, but more to a 6 year old. The feel's kinda good actually..

I've been doing good these few days. I tried to stay positive and be strong in handling my own feelings. And i did it. I'm proud of myself..

I've decided to go to annual dinner on the 30th of October. You know, juz to have some fun with my friends and to make me forget my troubles..*sigh* Well, good luck and all the best, Kelly!! You can survive this year!!

Both of our feet hanging on the monkey bars..

Pic taken from monkey bars..

The swings!!

From the monkey bars..

Deepika and i on the monkey bars..

Joyce on the swing



Beautiful sky..

Smile and get over with it..

Yeah,Smile and get over with it.. I must be confident in myself to endure all this. I can do it. Just smile... =)

To you, the one I love..

Staring out the window pane
Looking at the raindrops falling
It's a wet and cold day
And I know I am all alone

Sitting by the fireplace
Counting the days
Thinking and wondering
How much I've missed you

Never mind I told myself
Everything's gonna be fine
That's what you told me
Although I am not so sure

And without myself knowing
Tears come falling down
One by one they rolled down
Like the raindrops I saw just now

The only thing I'm sure
Is that she is with you now
And you're holding her in your arms
To keep her safe and warm

There's only one thing I can say
Be happy and all the best
Cause that's my only request
To you, the one I love


By: Autumn Mist 09©

Goodbye..

Oh, i love you,
Endless time,
I lose my mind because of you.

Oh, i want to kill myself,
You are the only one in my heart,
The only thing,
That is night,
My love, you are every breath that i take,
Oh, I love you..

If you go,
say goodbye,
But you know this,
I will always by your side,
Bye bye,
If you go,
Say goodbye,
But you know this,
I will always love you..

When it’s hard to say anything,
And when I want to see you,
Can’t say anything,
Can’t do anything,
I can’t do anything at all..

Everyday, everynight,
Every single day i want you,
Please don't leave me alone,
Don't leave me alone,
I want you need you love you,
I gonna take you..

Oh, i want to kill myself,
I'm just singing,
I love you...

A click can break your heart..

One Click.
One Click.
One Click!
Only by that click of my mouse, my heart is not there anymore. Why? Why must i be so curious? Why must i be so nosey parker? Why do i online today? Why do i even play facebook? Why? If it wasn't so, maybe my heart will still be there..

We were having lots of fun, and yet, now it is all meaningless..completely MEANINGLESS. I hate myself. I hate myself for being curious and search for his name in facebook. I shouldn't have done this. I shouldn't. But, it had already happened. I saw his name. I saw his picture. Well, THEIR picture.

She's beautiful. And i'm not.
She's cute. And i'm not.
She's OLD enough. And i'm not.
She's fair. And i'm not.
She has nice hair. And i don't have it.
She has big eyes. And i don't have it either.
She has a nice, white set of teeth. And i don't have it.
Her smile is killing every single boy. And mine SUCKS.

What am i going to do now? I'm so confused. So sad. So dissapointed. Before that, my brother has already told me. But at that time, i do not trust his eyes. Now, today, just now, when i saw her, i knew it. I knew i'll never make it. No matter how hard i try.

But, i cannot give up so easily. That's the problem. In every case like this, i'll take it SERIOUSLY. now it's the same case with the previous one. Wasted 2 years and a half more to forget him? Or more? I have no idea.It's all my fault. I shouldn't have done that. I really shouldn't. But, what's done is done. There's no turning back.